when we lose our soul mate our best friend our lovers, the feeling of emptiness does not subside. i don't know how may people know that a broken heart is true i believe that you can die of a broken heart and i can understand why! when my stephen died i found out what heartache was, i will never feel such pain again. my whole life changed in a moment. its the things we don't think about. how do you chose a carpet alone? what shall we have for dinner? hmm cant wait for him to come home! but he never does and he can never help make a decision again. on our own! although the pain will always be there it does calm im 2 yrs into being a widow with 2 children... i don't sleep much i cry sometimes, i have happy days i have sad days..i have days when i giggle to myself and smile......the days when you don't want to move are the worst...Today is an ok day, i found out i wasn't alone (although you know)...we never see, we never feel like 1 of many but we are... so here we are two peas in a pod missing he people we love getting through each day. 1 day we will love again we will look back at happy memories and not be sad we will look back and accept we had the most amazing gift ever the gift of true love....the good old saying stand strong..'better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all' we may be unlucky...but in another way we are two of the luckiest ppl alive!!!!!!!!!! sarah xx

She is gone and I am so sorry, but happy that before she died she had met a guy like you, sad because this is the way I see love but never had, happy because your words make me believe that I am not looking for what doesn't exist, sad because I can't give her back to you, happy because one day Glenn it will get better and you will find your self smiling remembering something nice about her but you will have another hand to hold. xx

almost 5 years and i'm still here missing you. still dont know what im supposed to do. xxx glenn♠